I can't believe what you just said,
I keep playing it over in my head.
I thought that we would last forever,
I guess forevers last like nevers.
I thought I still loved you when you broke my heart,
I thought it would hurt, us being apart.
I only cried for a second or two,
Then I realized that I was actually over you.
I keep thinking of all the good times we had,
how we'd make up when we got mad.
I want to say that I miss you still,
but baby I don't think that I will.
You want to forget me that's okay
Just to let you know I've found another way.
I found another just like you,
he makes me fell the way that you used to.
He's really great in every way,
there's not really much left to say.
I hope that youre happy without me around,
and I hope one day that our friendship will be found.

Dear You,

The love of my life,
You are as sweet as can be,
I love you so much,
And you love me.
I think about you in the morning,
I dream of you at night.
You are my heart,
And you are my soul.
You are the arms that warm me,
When I'm cold.
I love being near you,
I love seeing your face.
The light in your eyes flickers,
At such an elegant pace.
Your eyes are clear and blue,
Like the water in the ocean.
Your hair is so soft and perfect,
Your body is distinct and built.
I love to caress your soft, tan skin.
Your touch is soothing to my soul.
I love you more than anything,
You take my breath away,
And give me yours.
When we kiss, you become the other half of me.
I love it when you hold me,
I love being your girl,
I love it when you say you miss me,
And tell me I'm your world.
I want to spend my life with you,
And live out my dreams with you.
We can do it if we try,
We could have everything we've ever wanted
Our dream jobs, children, a beautiful home...and my favorite part,
Sleep by each other every night,
Our hearts beating as one.
I will give you everything I have,
You are my life.
I love you.

In the hour of my painful pleasure
When frustration juxtaposed my hands
Even when I trudge through the street
Through the rabbles and itching of the night
When the house plates cry and weep
For the moment of pressurizing
Yet, mine heart ponder in thought when I lie within my bed
Within my bed of discomforted
Buried in mood and scotched in head
When thou feeble and senile and healthy smile truncated
When famine gripped my stomach
Hard word coarsen my lips
Let dark cloud give way to light
And blue skies glimpsed by
Smiles aglow and breathe a refresher
My flowers bloom again and future unfolds grasses are evergreen
And sun is raising high for you
Just for you to smile

So uncomparable with the rest
Till her news brought the angels unrest
How can I possibly describe her majesty
To those subtle eyes of your heart
For you to ponder and say,
She is the Crest of the Best

Her elegance is the harmonious wedding of mystery and beauty
Is this a dream or a figment of my imagination
This, I always ask, to quench the fire of this enthralling mystery
No matter how hard I try, I get more entangled in this trap of fantasy
I sighed in sweet retreat,"I will resign and drink from the cup of destiny"
Folks, look at how she flutes and sing along her melody
Let us all feast on her beauty till stupor and whisper,
She is the Crest of the Best

I admire the pride of the peacock
The calmness of the dove
The elegance of the deer
The cheerfulness of the dolphin
The suppleness of the wool
The purity of the snow
The soothing sensation of the monsoon
But the queen of my heart has unparalled beauty
The paragon of enchantment is incomparable to all these
That is why I utter in high spirits,
She is the crest of the best

your eyes
oceans showered in gold
melodies never growing old
a glance from them now see me unfold

your smile
the sun for my heart
a gleaming work of art
a smile of my own can't help but to start

you
boy, you put me in a daze
igniting my insides in some unyielding blaze
on my lips dances that 3 word phrase

I want to have all of your heart
Oh yes I do
And I promise to hold it close to me
And keep it true for you

Would you like to have any of my heart all
Would you promise to hold it close to you
And never let it fall
To the ground and to the dirt

And I want all your heart because you seem to actually care
You seem like someone I could love

And I want to keep you for myself
Because I never want to loose you

And I pray that you feel the same
And that you understand
my heart is not a game
So please don't play with it

You turned to me and asked, did I really love you true,
would I love you always or one day make you blue?
I must confess your questions caught me by surprise,
so I held your hands, then gazed into your eyes.

My love for you is stronger than mighty Samson's arms
and so deep I could not bear to ever see you harmed.
The sight of you elates me on those days I wake up sad
and when I feel your touch, it's the best l ever had.

I will love you longer than the seas caress their shores
and beyond the day when the sun can rise no more.
Past the day eternity will have to take it's final breath,
my soul will always love you, even after death.

You are the single flower in this garden called my heart,
I planted you there in love and never will you part.
So if you ever start to wonder if I really love you true,
remember my love's forever as long as you are you.

A wound, I remember the way
It came about that fateful day
No one saw it coming, especially not me
When to my knees did I fall, no longer could I see
Everything was blurry, no way was this right
You would live because you would fight
But everyone is crying, they are full of despair
I look and I look but you are no where

A wound still healing and yet more come along
Every time the radio plays our special song
Out of the millions and millions of songs there could be
They have to play the one that is killing me

My heart yet to heal, struggling to fight
Your name is whispered and it goes off in flight
It beats in my chest, each pounding starts a flame
For someone dared to speak your name
Your cologne on the air and once again I feel
A new wound forming over those yet to heal

Nothing to sooth, nothing for the pain
Just seconds and minutes and hours and days
Days without you feel like an eternity to me
So I long for the day when together we will be
Though it's not now and I don't know when
I'll be there with you, in the very end

However many scars there will eventually be
Forever in my heart you will be with me

Sweet innocence,
cast into a beauty so sinful,
as deep eyes pull you into the soul,
of a greyish-green sea,
so calm and willing,
to be disturbed by your storm,
all seems to go mute,
as the bird`s songs fade,
and all light is removed...
just you, her and the shade,
the hearts begin to gallop,
while your mind thinks no more,
hairs begin to raise,
and she unlocks your hearts door,
your lip suddenly twitches,
yet your eyes are deep in wonder,
fearless hearts that met each other,
meant to spend an eternity forever.
You sip the finest wine with the gods,
until your hearts full desire,
you wish you were one,
so you`d always be together...
fearless hearts,
fused together by will,
eternal love,
together....still.

Sometimes I wonder to myself, could I be a poet,
In the back of my head I think no and don’t even know it.
I have all these emotions deep down inside,
I can’t express them so I just let them reside.
This is the only way I feel safe to show how I feel,
This about me, a girl, and this poem is all real.
They say that truth lies within the eyes of the beholder,
Well, truth is, when I look into her eyes, I just want to hold her.
Problem is that I let the fear overcome,
My mind wants to tell her, but my body is on the run.
I know the words to say and how they should flow,
What I don’t know is how to just let my emotions go.
Everyday that I look into her eyes, I find, to my surprise,
I become blind, I can’t look in front or see what’s behind.
Everything around me becomes useless and inconsistent,
Its just me, next to her, feeling extreme happiness for that instant.
Maybe I am exaggerating, maybe what I feel will pass,
But for now I can’t shake my feelings, they’ve grown on me like a mass.
Why cant I tell her, I just want to shout it OUT,
But instead I keep it all inside with a head full of doubt.
Its my fear, I am scared of rejection,
I don’t want to express myself and not have her affection.

you were not aware
that i oft walked past
hoping to catch a glimpse
a glimpse that would last
me until I saw you again
you were not aware
that i clung to every word
cherishing it
hoping it would not be the last
that i'd ever hear from you
you were not aware
that i spent many nights
lying and crying in bed
praying that one day
we could be together
you were not aware
that i loved you
with everything i
believed and thought
i had to my name
you were not aware
that i felt this way at all
so how could you be aware
now that i don’t feel this way
for you anymore

it can't be returned
you hold no receipt
my heart you have stolen
with that smile so sweet

Moving cohesively as
one, smoothly, flowing,
touch that arises and
fades in waves of passion

Mine against his, close
enough to feel him want
me, far enough to not let
him have me

Longing for more, not
willing to give it, pulling
away before wants are
truly fulfilled

Mine against his, close
enough to want his love,
far enough not to take
his in

His hands moving
over my skin, my desire
increasing with every
second we’re this close

Mine against his, close
enough to feel, far
enough to escape before
it can go any further

He pulls me close, mine
moves against his, just
feeling, never letting
him in

Mine against his, close
enough to want more, close
enough to touch, so close
I could scream with pleasure

Mine against his, far enough to be
safe, far enough to get away, far
enough to keep me wanting...

...just out of reach

A dark nights wish from me to you
Is only but to kiss
You and your Angel lips

And a snow White's kiss
To revitalize any moment I miss

A stiff cold night
And the end of a fight
Has lead to make right
The angel lips from you to me
That seam to fit just perfectly

And as the night here is
We sit and kiss
Until all time's gone
And then we just sit still

The night is over
And we kiss a final time
And say goodbye
Until it is again I meet those lips
I wave goodbye

When you love someone so deep inside,
It seems like it's so easy to hide.
You've loved her for so very long,
You would think she could do no wrong.

Every day you would hope and pray,
That she would always stay this way.
She treated you like you should be treated,
You thought your life was finally completed.

You thought your love was growing true,
And then one day it was all so blue.
She started putting you down and it hurt,
You thought all you were to her was dirt.

She started ignoring you and you wondered why,
All you wanted to do was curl up and die.
You thought your relationship would never end,
But that was all so fake and pretend.

One night she was so sweet to you,
You thought all those things were maybe untrue,
Two days later she was back the same,
You thought you were the one to blame.

She thought the relationship was getting too serious
And that you had become a little too curious.
By this time you knew it wouldn't last,
All the nice things she said were in the past.

You thought that you would marry her some day,
But this time God wanted to get her way.
You wanted things back how they were before,
But you knew this couldn't happen anymore.

It was a Saturday night about ten o'clock,
You heard the news and it wasn't a shock.
You knew this was going to happen soon,
As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon.

I drool at your pictures,
and survey each one.
I'm tempted, and demand that my lips touch yours.
The very next day, I walk up and say,
"There'll be no way i'll stand this for any more days."
I lean in and kiss you as soft as can be,
and leave you wanting some more of me.

Like a sun rising over the horizon
I overcame all the pain and fear
New memories begin to grow
As the old ones begin fade
This is a new start…a fresh beginning
Something I never thought would come
Time has gone so far
And memories seemed to burn
Like flames in a burning building
Crashing down on me
This is a new start
Shocked as I can be
With one breath and one step
I move on with this
Old life
In thought to never
Call to mind
The old memories
That burned inside
This is my new start
Fresh as it can be, this is coming from my heart
And I promise
It will always be

Blue
soul brought
an awe with
opaque visions.
My crusade begins amongst burning stars.

Under bright envisioned design of mine
balconies burn;
Exterior
carves
lust.

I hope you know I love you.
I hope you know I care.
I hope you know I miss you.
Every second you're not there.

I hope you know I'm proud of you.
And all that you have done.
No matter the insignificance
Of the crusade that you've won.

I hope you know you're gorgeous.
In every single way.
But that's not why I yearn to see you,
Every second, every day.

I hope you know you have my heart.
And you always will.
I've loved you since the day we met.
And I love you still.

I hope you know that you're the greatest,
And that's not a lie.
But most of all,
I hope you know,
You'll always be my Ty!

I waited, forever it seemed
To come across you, my dream
To fall in love with the ‘right man’
Yet alone again is where I stand

I’m so sick of trying to build on this
And all I’m doing is breaking down
Underneath the tears of anticipated years
That never will be found

The tears inside fall from swollen eyes
And they reflect the broken hopes and dreams
The insistent pleas, the violent screams
The sound of my breaking my heart tonight
I force myself to say goodbye

It kills me, watching you walk away
With nothing more for me to say
As I turn my back to you this time
I feel this relationship sublime

I tried so hard to do it right
To be the one you look for at night
But the truth is becoming hard to fight
Why can’t you just be satisfied?

I’m not going back this time
I know it hurts, but I’ll be fine
As soon as I can cease to dream
And forget you were my everything

He called me one day right out of the blue

And I knew with in those first words I would always love you

Our first conversation lasted seven hours

By then all of our information was poured out and devoured

We talked about our kids, family, futures, and dreams

This is the guy I been looking for a friend, love, for which I can lean

Our conversation continued

and our hearts both flew being renewed

So many nights after I began to have dreams of him

In mirages I hope soon would come true hoping his heart I would win

Each night and day passed slow

Then it finally came the time to know

I drove to his house nervous and scared

I looked around to see if he was there

Then out the corner of my eye

I saw him walking near as I prepared to cry

My knees started to shake as my eyes filled with tears

Slow motion he walked hearing every foostep crunching the grass

He ran to me arms wide open giving me a tight grasp

My tears flowed to a puddle cascaying on my shirt

He took his soft hands and wiped them as if they were a shoe with tons of dirt

I stood there with my body firm looking in his eyes

He smiled tears, looking at the sky
We inch closer eyes closing, lips locking

Bam! my body melts and my heart ruptures as the eternal clock starts tick tocking

Memories clinch through my head

Of every little word he previously said

Paralyzed I stand there letting god take his course

We slender off as I look at this beautiful source.

My mind tells me I want one, two three more dose

As the night moves on we end up growing very close

As night comes to an end I have to go back home

I jump in the car as my mind slips into constant roam

Two years later and him I still love

Must have been a sign from the great above

Then suddenly one day I got a call from his mom

saying, "Have you saw Bryan he didn't call or come home last night."

"Are you sure you have called everyone and checked everywhere are you sure he's gone" I said in fright

She said "Yes." as she burst into tears

Then all of our memories of us kicked into gear

She got off the phone and called the police

They said they haven't heard anything but found some unfamiliar keys

As they were describing on the phone what they had found

A man called the station said he found a dead body near the highway on the ground

The police informed his mom of the news and told her to come to the station

The way they rushed you would have that it was a terriost investigation

They arrived at the scene with the man who had called about the news

"You go in or stay." the cops said as they had to choose

The cop entered the brush as his face turn ghostly pale

Bryan's mom run screaming what, what is it as she saw the blood trail

She took one look of her son and turned fragile and stale

"That's my son" she proclaims as she starts in denial

She picks up her cell phone and starts to dial

I pick up the phone not prepared for the worst

She said his life will end soon in a black hurst

My heart starts to sting as no words I could say

I just wanted to take my life away and be buried next to him that day

Now I visit his tombstone every chance I get

This is why I am writing this poem because I haven't gave up yet

I visit his grave, sit down and talk to him

Feel his words echo through the wind

But this grave stone is made out of marble and will slowly fade away

but the effort, love, time, and memories will always stay

LOVE VS. LIKE

Never leave the one that you LOVE for the one
that you LIKE.
Cause the one that you LIKE will leave you for
the one that they LOVE.
The one that you LIKE will give you goosebumps.
The one you LOVE will make you laugh and send
shivers down your spine.
When the one you LIKE cries you feel sorry
for them.
When the one you LOVE cries you cry for them.
True LOVE doesn't have a happy ending because true LOVE
NEVER ENDS.

SHHHH....
Silently sleeping
He looks so innocent.
just like an ANGEL

And this is it baby
Don't trust us at all

WE'LL FUCK IT UP BABY

Always the first to fall
In love
With heart breakers
And car shakers
Reckless, oh yeah.

You are amazing,
No cares at all
Oh reckless, thats us.
I wanna fuck it up
And i feel so alive

Scream, Scream, make some noise
Fuck, fuck, all the boys
Thats us, baby
Reckless.

Life like this?
Reckless.
Love like this?
Reckless.
Die like this?
Yeah baby,
Reckless.




Like old times baby,
But now I'm alone. . .

i begin my day with my normal routine
breath wakeup and set for the scene
everyday the same old routine
nothing special
but today it seems
my morning started off with a smile
and my first thought happend to take awhile
today i wasn't dressing up for the scene
today it seemed to be unreal
just like a dream
only this morning
it happened to be
our anniversary

your eyes have lost their light
every day used to be a delight
to wake up and wonder what came next
all those surprising love letters,voice messages,and text
i really don't know whose to blame
now no surprises its all the same
maby one of us opened up a bit too much
now it seems our relationship doesn't have enough ruts
everything you do i can almost predict
I thought to myself this cannot be right
sorry honey your eyes have lost their light

Let's return to
Our beloved land;
We'll spread our wings and
Soar into space --
Father Time will not stop
Us,
My Peter.

Let's sit on the clouds,
Under the swaying trees as
Beautiful fairies dance by;
I'll hold your hand,
My Peter,
And we'll hold each other.

Let's swim and
Dive deep
Into the sea of lost spirits;
But it is also a sea to
Find ourselves again.

Follow that school of
Frowning fish, and
We'll discover
That hidden treasure
Like we did so long ago.

Let the ocean waves wash
Us onto a shore of
Memories, My Peter,
Our Island,
Is where we'll stay.

Your soft skin,
Your eyes: windows to your soul,
Your sweet kisses,
Your warm embrace.
I will remember.

Let's watch the
Sea Goddesses as they
Circle us,
And listen to their enticing songs,
My Peter,
For when they drown amidst the
Sunrise,
Their songs die, too.

The mermaids will keep
Our love strong now.
They will keep us
Strong.

My Peter,
My Love,
I have already begun to
Forget You, to
Miss You.

Let our lips touch and
Promise me to meet up again, one day,

In Neverland,
My Peter.

Tell me how do I keep trapped inside
A secret that I must continue to hide
Feelings I choke down like razor blades
Our eternal romance, I tell you never fades

In existence we will never be able to keep
Caged up, the feelings make me weep
A life, love I once knew that eats at my heart
We can never go back to the untarnished start

Actions and consequences stick in my head
I’ve listened to every word you’ve ever said
The past remains and the present now exists
Our lives have taken so many different twists

We will never be able to go back to the beginning
And my heart will never be able to stop aching
I must do what I feel is right and stay where I sit
I hope I don’t live my life and end up regretting it

Excitement builds
My cheeks flush
You’re overwhelming

Butterflies swarm
I listen to your voice
My love forms

I feel your warmth
I’m tempted
But faintly back away

Your lips calling my name
Hesitation
I go for the plunge

Delicately
I kiss you
The passion inside me burns

I just want to hold you tight
And sleep next to you all night
Because I feel safe with you in my arms

Soft hushes and silent breaths,
a feeling you never want to forget,
of that special moment when everything feels at peace,
the moment that is done all too soon,
the uniqueness of a kiss,
the gentle strokes of a wanting hand,
the taming of a beast with just a look into his wild eyes,
fighting it is futile,
but there is never enough reason to fight it at all...
those soft lips seem to fit yours with a grace,
that mere words are to shallow to express,
a feeling unlike any other,
a feeling that opposes death...
or so that was it before,
taken now to be a game,
love is a phrase that now means "to share pain",
the beauty in life has all disappeared,
when i think about you,
feelings grow numb,
rage softens,
and after 16 years of reckless wildness,
and violent thinking,
you have tamed me,
without even trying,
in just 10 days.....